blatantly odd and totally trivial

today I got stood up by the same asshole that’s been stringing me along for a while. well,...

Fri, 27 Jan 2012 02:18:16 -0500

today I got stood up by the same asshole that’s been stringing me along for a while. well, that’s not fair, he’s not really an asshole. and we’ve both made mistakes. but now I can’t fucking sleep. and I was hating that it was getting to me so hard.

then it hit me - just like in a movie - I’ve been alone all my life. I’ve found a whole bunch of assholes to chase after (they never chase after me).

and to be fucking real, I don’t actually know who I am. I’m sick of spending time and energy on all those fucks. time to figure out who I actually am.

I’m making a list. and this journey’s starting now.

maybe accidentally made out with someone in a graffiti-filled bathroom and am not sorry about it at...

Fri, 13 Jan 2012 04:21:12 -0500

maybe accidentally made out with someone in a graffiti-filled bathroom and am not sorry about it at all.

I am totally fucking smitten. fuck.

Thu, 15 Dec 2011 03:29:16 -0500

I am totally fucking smitten. fuck.

"we are all a little weird and life’s a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness..."

Mon, 14 Nov 2011 14:23:00 -0500

“we are all a little weird and life’s a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love.”

- dr. suess

I really, really do.

Sun, 17 Jul 2011 23:50:19 -0400

I really, really do.

today seems like a good day to start loving myself, flaws...

Sat, 16 Jul 2011 19:26:47 -0400

today seems like a good day to start loving myself, flaws included.

you know what, I’ve been on this “let’s try to get skinny so dudes will like...

Sat, 16 Jul 2011 18:41:26 -0400

you know what, I’ve been on this “let’s try to get skinny so dudes will like us” kick recently. fuck that. I don’t want to get skinny - I want to get happy.

I need to start appreciating myself more. I need to remember I’m fucking great.

starting today, that’s my mission.

chubby-bunnies: These stockings make me love my thighs a...

Sat, 16 Jul 2011 17:32:05 -0400

chubby-bunnies:

These stockings make me love my thighs a thousand times more.

"with a strong commitment to inquiring into yourself, the universe does not have to use catastrophes..."

Mon, 30 May 2011 18:34:49 -0400

“with a strong commitment to inquiring into yourself, the universe does not have to use catastrophes to wake you up.”

- “conscious loving” by gay and kathlyn hendricks

so, apparently I underestimated my game. like a lot. maybe not in the real world, but in the nerdy...

Sun, 24 Apr 2011 04:12:24 -0400

so, apparently I underestimated my game. like a lot. maybe not in the real world, but in the nerdy world I’m like catnip.

it’s weird. I don’t know how to behave in this situation.

fuck, summer’s fast approaching. time to step it up. time...

Tue, 05 Apr 2011 01:02:16 -0400

fuck, summer’s fast approaching. time to step it up. time to ditch this double chin.

time to try.

starting a new twitter: nerdygirlproblems.

Fri, 01 Apr 2011 03:37:18 -0400

starting a new twitter: nerdygirlproblems.

I’m going to soar above the ground in my head and try to...

Mon, 28 Mar 2011 03:16:29 -0400

I’m going to soar above the ground in my head and try to ignore the fact that he called me a mistake.

black-and-white: fog | by laemmen

Tue, 22 Mar 2011 14:09:20 -0400

black-and-white:

fog | by laemmen

yesterday I went out for a supremely decadent lunch. it might have been the tastiest meal I’ve...

Tue, 22 Mar 2011 13:59:29 -0400

yesterday I went out for a supremely decadent lunch. it might have been the tastiest meal I’ve ever eaten. and it reminded me that so many times I eat out of boredom or convenience rather than appreciating what I’m ingesting. I need to stop that. I want to start eating for me. I want to eat when I’m hungry. I want to eat things that will make my body happy. I want to feel good about what I eat.

and going along with that, I want to take care of myself. I want to be better. I want to feel healthier. I want to look in the mirror and think “fuck yeah.” especially since summer is coming up. I want to be able to run around carefree in my swimsuit. I take that back, I want to do that, but I also want to turn heads. I want to unleash my inner bombshell.

I’m tired of being the funny one or the cute one, I want to be the blazing hot one. I’m starting to feel what that’s like, but I want to unleash my potential.

I want to be able to command an army - to provoke passion.

saying that, though, I need to evaluate my emotions and my romantic choices. because right now I know I’m sabotaging myself. I’m enamored with the one who isn’t enamored back, while I leave the one who is enamored alone. I think I’m so scared of emotional closeness that subconsciously I’ll do anything to push it away. I have no clue. this heart of mine is a mess. I need to try to start cleaning up.

so fucking adorable. halleyelizabeth: You’re welcome.

Sun, 23 Jan 2011 22:05:16 -0500

so fucking adorable.

halleyelizabeth:

You’re welcome.

that’s it. I’ve had enough of ridiculous online dating sites. goodbye, okcupid. I...

Sun, 24 Oct 2010 23:06:50 -0400

that’s it. I’ve had enough of ridiculous online dating sites. goodbye, okcupid.

I logged on for the first time in weeks and it was just slightly too absurd for me to comprehend.

I’d rather be single in the real world realm, thanks.

I think I’m ok with not having a social or dating life.

or I’m lying to myself. both are highly likely.

anyway, this is my ode to returning to blogging. or at least attempting.

fuckyeahindieboys: hipster hp

Fri, 22 Oct 2010 13:29:05 -0400

fuckyeahindieboys:

hipster hp

fuckyeahindieboys: hipster hp

Fri, 22 Oct 2010 13:28:50 -0400

fuckyeahindieboys:

hipster hp

tonight my friend zach told me that he keeps thinking I’m a character in a TV show. he went on...

Sat, 25 Sep 2010 02:18:48 -0400

tonight my friend zach told me that he keeps thinking I’m a character in a TV show. he went on to clarify that if I were in a TV show it would be a reality show with me hanging out in the 1950s.

it’s one of the best compliments I’ve ever gotten.