today I got stood up by the same asshole that’s been stringing me along for a while. well, that’s not fair, he’s not really an asshole. and we’ve both made mistakes. but now I can’t fucking sleep. and I was hating that it was getting to me so hard.
then it hit me - just like in a movie - I’ve been alone all my life. I’ve found a whole bunch of assholes to chase after (they never chase after me).
and to be fucking real, I don’t actually know who I am. I’m sick of spending time and energy on all those fucks. time to figure out who I actually am.
I’m making a list. and this journey’s starting now.