blatantly odd and totally trivial

today I got stood up by the same asshole that’s been stringing me along for a while. well, that’s not fair, he’s not really an asshole. and we’ve both made mistakes. but now I can’t fucking sleep. and I was hating that it was getting to me so hard.

then it hit me - just like in a movie - I’ve been alone all my life. I’ve found a whole bunch of assholes to chase after (they never chase after me).

and to be fucking real, I don’t actually know who I am. I’m sick of spending time and energy on all those fucks. time to figure out who I actually am.

I’m making a list. and this journey’s starting now.

maybe accidentally made out with someone in a graffiti-filled bathroom and am not sorry about it at all.

I am totally fucking smitten. fuck.

I really, really do.

(Source: elllicopter)

today seems like a good day to start loving myself, flaws included. 

you know what, I’ve been on this “let’s try to get skinny so dudes will like us” kick recently. fuck that. I don’t want to get skinny - I want to get happy. 

I need to start appreciating myself more. I need to remember I’m fucking great. 

starting today, that’s my mission. 

chubby-bunnies:

These stockings make me love my thighs a thousand times more.

so, apparently I underestimated my game. like a lot. maybe not in the real world, but in the nerdy world I’m like catnip. 

it’s weird. I don’t know how to behave in this situation.